It seems like shit when so much of my time is spent on work. How about other personal stuff, vic? The only times that I can spare for myself are like meagre. wtf why is my life so screwed up. I must continue smiling and be happy. Yes I will. It has been a long while since the last time I was so depressed. Stress, fucking go and die.

wtf. I am such a failure. How can I flunk maths?! Isn't it too late to regret now. This paper is 20% and look what. This sucks like shit. My time management is gross. Oh gosh how can I not complete so many questions?! Maths is supposingly the easiest subject and I Flunk it? I dont deserve to be in this school. I'm afraid of failing. The feeling is incomprehensible. Mum's disappointment is breaking my heart. The fact that she didnt chide me and encouraged me instead made me more guilty. I am sorry, mum and dad. I will work harder for the Math EYA. Haizz now I have to account to Dr Kwek this sunday. :/ Hang on, Vic. Yes, I will try my best to improve for EYA.

Woots almost completed SIP!(: "And it felt so good! A woman let me put my p*nis..." lol so addicted to that dumb song. Anyways, these past few days have been spent doing SIP till about 1 and it's seriously killing me. Why is RGS screwing up with my life so badly?!

I am sorry if I neglected you. Sorry if I am drifting away from you. Sorry if I unintentionally ditch you nowadays. It is almost impossible for me to control who I get close to. I hope you understand. I will try my best to be as close as how we were. Frankly, I didn't sense much difference in our "close-ness". Probably I am insensitive? I thought we were still as close as normal. But sometimes it bores me a little when you spend so much time mugging and I definitely am not the kind who would sit and mug all day. I sincerely apologise for my ignorance. But I really hope you will understand... I still love you as a friend and thanks for everything that you have provided me with. I will try my best!

What is becoming of me? Though this year has been a rather hectic and mind-boggling year, it has taught me many lessons I would never forget. I learnt to look at things in a different light and think thoroughly before acting. However, there are certainly many things I can improve on. The inspirational book which read certainly taught me a great deal much. I realised that cultivating modest, eradicating self-centred craving, and developing sympathetic joy at the happiness of others plays a big part in developing our morales. A person who is imbued with such good thoughts is a blessing to himself and certainly, the world at large. A happy and contented life is only attained when one overcomes selfishness and develops goodwill, understanding and benevolence. Yes, this was truely inspirational. Content and sympathy. One of the biggest factors in life.

''Had a dream I was king, I woke up, still king...'' oohyeahh

I hate it when I have so much shit to do. So many things to worry about. Work. Piano. Golf. Tuitions. I need more time for personal stuff. RGS is killing me. Fcuk.

Why is infatuation so shortlived and intense?

Just finished golf lesson with Coach Allen. Oh gosh life is so hectic this week and I hardly had time to take a break and rest. Marina 21k later! AARRGHH this is killing me.

Oh man so much stress:( ugh. this sucks like hell. My parents' disappointed faces are what I dread. The feeling that I would let them down is excruciating.

Yes I agree!(:

wtf violated at such a young age? oh man you must be kidding me. sigh so unfortunate:( great that you called the police. stay strong<3

OH SHIZ. I AM A FREAKING BAD GIRL. OH SHIT. HOW CAN I DO THIS. OH DAMN. THIS SUCKS BIG TIME. OH YUCK. I AM A FREAKING BADASS.

Cheer up dear.
You might have been disappointed by the results. That you did not get what you expected. I guess life is filled with so many uncertainties and the path to success is not always smooth. You will get the post next year yeah?(: I wouldnt mind giving you my post with the fact that you were so utterly disappointed in yourself. I never expected that I would get it. All of us will definitely support you and Reinette 13'11 will always love you <3

LOL that was freaking funny.
Theodore: Hey vic, what is cooking?
Me: Meaning of cooking is zhu fan.
Theodore: No i meant whats hot or new!
Me: ROFL.
Times like these make me feel like some dumbass.-.-

Sigh today's maths exam really stunned me. I guess I have not worked hard enough? This is frigging demoralising. I am prepared to flunk it. No shit. Yes I will flunk it. This sucks big time. Shall drill on maths soon!

Great. After today's exams, I still have truckloads of work to be done. WTF when is this ending? This is killing me:(

Yes. Take my advice. Stop it please:( You're driving me up the wall. But I wouldn't flare up cos it would definitely hurt you at this point of time.

nah I dont. (:

Yesterday's 10km Jurong Lake run surely did test my patience again. I guess it was a great experience again, different from those other marathon runs. Eugenia and I faced difficulties at about the 9.5km mark due to our individual reasons, like she had stomach pain while I had stitches. It finally struck me that the last 1.5km was so crucial. By walking the last 1.5km, it could add approximately 10 minutes to our time. Our lack of determination, and probably the hindering pain was a great factor too. However, if I had persevered, my timing would have definitely been faster, about 58 min, as I planned. Fortunately, despite walking 1.5km, our timing was still satisfactory.(: 1.14. This seemingly minor event, something so insignificant, non-competitive truely did tell me something important. Nothing is "minor". Trying my best in everything is definitely what I should aim for. Jia you vic:) heh

there was a fat ugly monster called Victoria. Hahaha

Life might be tough. But stay strong and all will be fine(:

Love is never affected by materialism or age. Thanks for making me realise. (:

It amuses me when you could simply shut off all negative thoughts. How you would not give a damn about what others say about you. Most of the time, I would admire your optimism. But this time, your ignorance and obstinance has gone too far. Your over confidence and arrogance is pissing me off.

Sigh Geog and Math exams are in 2 days. Why am I so frigging slack?:( This sucks big time. Ugh.

Oh man stop bugging me please:(